today was a good day visiting with some good people. went to sarahs, then to the park with ash then over to deb and franks. then i came home and watched the last kiss. this film got mixed reviews and was criticized for not living up to the so-called grandeur of garden state, but i actually loved this movie. though i feel like the characters were on the verge of being a bit too archetypal, i think the movie explored the reality of growing up and settling into adult life, which is something i think our generation will find more difficult than those of our parent's generation. it was honest and blunt and i appreciated that. the movie explores something that i am somehow oddly fascinated with which is the often shallow or hollowness of relationships in modern society. it seems like people just get bored and its just not important enough anymore to try to keep things going...this makes me so sad. i suppose however its better to recognize it for what it is rather than to be caught off guard by the way things seem to be. its funny, one day i want to be in a relationship, then the next day i think about all that entails and what i know based on past experiences and i think this is just not for me. i suppose it doesnt matter, you cant make relationships happen anyway, so even if i did want something it doesnt mean it would happen. but i suppose the question in my mind is whether or not i should even look for something like that or just turn myself off. well either way no midnight new years kiss again for angie...but maybe thats a good thing.