it's a quarter after one, i'm a little drunk and i need you now.

new headshot as of today.

being in front of the camera again was an interesting thing. that was the way i learned photography: photographing myself, and there was something so pure about it. secret methods kept to myself. no need to make conversation in between shots, and no time crunch whatsoever. just me and the camera. perhaps its time to do more of that again. its almost like i need someone to force me i swear. i have to remember the old adage about writing: write about what you know. if i could get past the nagging part of me that feels that need to make some grand shocking earth shattering expression and instead just made something beautiful i think i would be much happier and sleep a lot more at night.

I've been writing a lot in my little book, which has been a good thing. Not quite ready to share yet, but since I only get spam here anyway i suppose it might be good place to keep a silent record. hoping to write more tomorrow in between the like eight billion headshots i have to do of random faculty members throughout campus.

"You're full of ideas and creativity and talent that is so unique in nature and unyielding in growth that it couldn't possibly have stemmed from a simple want to impress any one person but yourself, your talent and creativity is genuine and it is for you and you alone. The real gift is that you were able to reach others in the process." --2006

Considering the source and the blunt overuse of "ideas" and "creativity" all the while juxtaposing it with "genuine" i can't really say i believe this, but i'll take it in stride as a confidence booster and better yet instead a goal to strive for. for now everything is limited to my little green book.