4/8/06 3:19 pm

One last car ride: were on the way back to R-Town, which apparently was hit by multiple tornadoes last night. Geez, what a story to come home to. We can all hope that maybe the power wont be back on by Monday and well have a special day off of school. That would be totally ok with me, I could use a vacation from vacation. Traffic is absolutely a nightmare, and it looks like were about to run into a severe thunderstorm at any minute, but all is well.

Sometimes I think about who out of all my friends I will actually keep in touch with in the long run. As much as Id like to say that all my friends and I will still be getting together 20 years from now for pimento cheese sandwiches and juice spritzers, I dont think its realistic to say that we will all be best buds after this whole high school thing is over. Despite this, I know there are a select few that I will be sure to keep in touch with once this is all said and done, and the two girls I am with on this trip are sure to be part of that select few. Were very good together, we can be together for long periods of time, and never get tired of each other. Sometimes, my relationship with Kelley is nothing short of scary. We even share a salad perfectly: she really likes the light green crunchy lettuce that I dont care for, and I like the really bright green pieces; we both like the croutons, but not so much that we hog them from the other. Who else would I not only let call me a whore, fucking idiot, etc. but also laugh profusely at said nicknames? Good friends are hard to find, essential to life, and impossible to forget. This is true.

I care about my girlfriends a lot because they seem to know me better than I know myself much of the time. They provide candid and honest advice from an outside viewpoint that I think is so important to have. They arent afraid to tell me the truth even when it hurts or isnt fun to hear. Thats why its so important for me to have their blessing on all the big decisions I make. Last night I stayed up almost all night, save about 45 minutes, in order to be tired for lots of naptime in the car. This didnt completely work because I cant sleep now for some reason, but Kelley was with me most of the night last night, so it was pretty easy for me to stay up all night. Over a delicious delicacy of animal crackers, we talked about a lot of stuff. Love, its existence, how its found, how its kept, what it is. I dont really know how long we talked, but im glad we did. For the longest time I felt scared to tell her about a lot of the things going on in my life because I felt like she would judge me and think less of me for them, but after last night I realize that she wants whatever will make me happy and what I want; although if she sees a problem she will be the first to let me know, she wants me to feel comfortable telling her anything because she will never judge me or think less of me. I know that this is what friends do for each other, but sometimes you just get so off track you kind of forget that, and you get scared that your friendship is no longer what it used to be. I know now that even though we as people have changed significantly, even just in the last 4 months, our friendship will always be the same, and that is perfectly fine with me.

Now comes the fun part. Six weeks left. Stress. Excitement. Confusion. Joy. Sadness. All these things and more. I am about to explode with love and im not the least bit afraid to admit that anymore. I cant wait.

You can bet Ill take pictures all along the way.

Oh yeah, and im proud to say im spoken for.

If you’ll excuse me, I think I might finally be getting tired, and regardless, I think its about time somebody in this car called for a Self Checkout. Yea-yah.