it's 6:33 on a june evening in suburbia during the last summer of your life, do you know where your heart is? everytime i think i know how i feel i realize how confused i really am. i think that if i can just be a little more open to the situation right now, i think ill be set. this is how its going to be,

and in truth, this is perfect.

this is the best.

this this this is true love.

i talk a lot about love on here, but do you want to know what love really is? i kinda borrowed this one from sam but he's totally right. true love is when you die inside when the other person feels bad or is sad. its that whole "one soul dwelling in two bodies". but that's how i feel. and its wrong and its bad and its weird and its whatever but i cant change that i can only change my outlook for the situation.

and i have.

and now my outlook reads like this: 90% chance of long-term friendship, 12% chance of actual romantic relationship, 100% chance you love him, 98% chance you will be okay with the way things are right now, 15% chance he'll ever know how much this relationship means to you.

i suppose in the end the ball isnt really in my court.

baa baa baa baa
this us the sound of settling

this is alright.