the antipassion generation.

i had another panic attack today. i am not completing all three sides of my so called "wellness triangle" its mainly the exercise part i'm lacking. and the sleep part. and the regular eating part...damn im screwed. that being said i really should go to sleep because that would help me out...but it's Christmas and i have to write a pre-gift giving christmas post, naturally.

24 hours from now will be the worst feeling in the world. the post Christmas feeling...that's always the worst, nothing left to look foward to. this year will be a little different though.

so i know what im getting for Christmas this year, a Metz flash and hopefully nothing else, but theres one other thing i want and it sucks because i know ill never get it, and that is this:

passion.

sounds stupid, but i have come to realize that i live in a generation that lacks passion for everything. we dont understand the value and neccesity of hard work because we've never really had to work very hard to get what we want. guys dont do the whole chivalry deal because they dont have to, we girls will throw ourselves at any potential male that comes our way. in such a disposable fast-paced world we think that if something doesnt work out we can just toss it aside because something better and different will surely come along. we lack that drive to make the things we want work. we feel like if things dont throw themselves on a silver platter in front of us theyre not worth having. this is so not true.

so my Christmas and New Years wish for all of us is that we may live our lives with undying passion. things may get a little off course, we may miss the mark initially, but you must you must you must fight for what you want.

live your life with passion.