gettin some random play.

last night i drove down from the knox on a somewhat last minute whim to go down and see my loves at uga. i always enjoy going to uga because its so much fun to hang out with literally almost all of my friends in the more free and fun college environment. for the past several months, i have questioned why i didnt just buck up and go to uga myself. things would certainly be a lot easier and the adjustment process would sure be much easier. i would have a much easier time networking. my campus would be much more diverse. id probably have a bigger dorm room with a bigger window. im also fairly sure id be in a relationship, with whom im unsure, but i would be in a relationship. the truth of the matter is however, i made my decision and though from time to time i feel like maybe i made the wrong one, i have to deal with whatever i chose because i kind of feel at this point that so long as i dont want to be in college forever, transferring is not a realistic possibility. but no matter all that serious stuff, i had an awesome time last night. from our inappropriately loud and sexual dinner conversation at transmet, to watching 40 year old virgin in jax's room, the robyn breaking the seal in more ways than one, to our farfrompuken stickers, to are we having fun yet? in inappropriate places, to annoying cole with our craziness, to getting down at firehouse and getting stared at by sketchy guys, to late night conversations and all the around and in between, it was probably the most fun ive had in a while. that being said...

sometimes i have to remind myself im in college. and therefore certain things are ok. they are acceptable. its ok to have fun, to be stupid, to be a little crazy, to get wild. its ok. im in college and therefore certain things are ok.

i have come to realize lately that some of the things i mark as mistakes or blunders in judgement are actually just litte anecdotes i can tell later that will remind me of all the lessons ive learned along the way and all the things i used to take for granted. maybe one of these days i wont have the kinds of friends i have now to lean upon. i wont feel the butterflies of the moment that hangs before your first kiss with a new love. i wont be able to reexperience the joy of moving out on my own for the first time.

the truth is, we're all just a bunch of virgins running around waiting to mark ourselves up so we have all these experiences under our belts. we dont get this time or this lifestyle back again. so yeah, maybe you get hurt, maybe you make a mistake, maybe you feel stupid, but the important thing is you did it. its all part of the ride.

i encourage myself to take advantage of the random in order to make my life somewhat interesting : )