forgive and forget.

"It really doesn't matter if the person who hurt you deserves to be forgiven. Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself. You have things to do and you want to move on."

if it doesnt matter to you, should it matter to anyone? if you dont think anything of it then is it really that important? is it worth starting something when youd really just rather forget it ever happened?

so they tell me to forgive is to:

1. To excuse for a fault or an offense; pardon.
2. To renounce anger or resentment against.

forgiveness has definitely come into play in my life in recent times. whether it be me asking for forgiveness from trespasses ive committed against friends, me granting forgiveness to those who have wronged me, me wondering if the things ive done can in fact be forgiven or observing others in a struggle over who's wrong and who's right and who deserves the forgiveness its something i think we all should have a grander understanding of.

honesty is the best policy, but sometimes little lies save the ones we love from unneccesary hurt. if it doesnt matter to me, if its not important to me, if its something i wished had never been and would love nothing more than to forget, is it really even worth bringing up? maybe honesty isnt always the best policy, but theres a fine line. so how do you know? how do you know how much to say? what to keep to yourself? what to lock away because you never want to see it again and you certainly dont want anyone else to? what to conceal because you know others wouldnt approve?

at the end of the day its all a judgement call. a judgement call that if made incorrectly could have absolutely dire consequences. so there are really only two things we can do:

a. we hope we can make the right judgment call.
b. if we dont do a. we must hope those around us love us enough to look past our downfalls.

thats absolutely 100% totally and completely all you can do.

stop.

in other news i am running around like a mad woman because i basically have x hours left before my week ends and 5x hours worth of things to do. (you like that algebra? i know you do.) two exams i havent read for, a photo critique tomorrow morning and three compositions due in color theory. fuck me, seriously.

oh well it all ends up well i should hope. im so unbelievably excited for wednesday-sunday. i think good things will go down and good times will be had for all, or at least lets hope so.

for now im off to hopefully put a nickel-sized dent in my laundry list of lovely things to do.