things i need to tell myself outside of my head aka: how i stopped listening to the arcade fire and learned to love myself.

theres always a lot to think about this time of year. its like since Christmas we've all packaged ourselves into cocoons and refused to acknowledge each other or the world around us until it becomes a manageable temperature once again. we emerge way too pale and ready to drink copious amounts of alcohol and reintroduce ourselves to the world once again. excuse me while i talk to myself a little bit here.

-you need to get a grip on your school work once again. though it is not right now, it should be your main focus if you can hold onto your grades you will be quite pleased with yourself. also, you need to keep your shit together.

-portfolio time! ahh fuck that we'll deal with that later.

-you should probably call ut and tell them youre not coming back...you never did that you know.

-maybe you should just go back to ut, at least you know where everything is.

-have you ever considered writing as a possible venture? apparently youre not awful at it...hmm writers dont make any money...neither do second rate designers shiiiittt...

-did you know that the human head weighs eight pounds?

-you REALLY need a haircut or something

-why are haircuts so freaking expensive??? and why do you have to tip on top of that?

-you need to go deposit that check today, perhaps you can chew out the branch location manager b/c his employee told jordan to call clark howard. chewing people out always makes you feel better.

-I could fancy having me one of those 50mm f1.4s right about now...noooo save your money!

-It would be nice to have a job that didnt block its employees from using the internet...i just wanted to look up the weather. Oh well, maybe ill read more.

-time to get my act together. ive got several models who want to work with me and a website to build.



its the first day of spring, congratulations! we made it through the rough harshness of winter. daylight savings time has arrived and i couldnt be more excited about that. i dont know how many times ive said this, so i cant attest to how much it will actually work for me, but the weather is getting warm, im at home in a place where im comfortable, no longer depressed and surrounded by people who care about me. its time to stop worrying my life away. its fun time.