june?

i cant believe its june already. ive been out of school for exactly one month and it sure doesnt feel like ive done much with that month. truth be told im getting kind of exhausted, i did it to myself though and i cant really complain. technically speaking i am holding four part time jobs right now and doing some other work on the side. i guess since im not doing earth-shattering things this summer like traveling abroad or bungy jumping off bridges or landing some sweet internship in nyc ive taken it upon myself to earn as much money as i feasibly can in this period of time and perhaps next year i can stop worrying about money for five seconds and enjoy myself a little bit. this the rest of this week is going to be a toughie: photoshoot early tomorrow morning lasting all day, then from there i go directly to reffing a swim meet until probably about 10pm. errands friday morning then work till 10pm. wake up at 630 saturday morning, shoot a wedding till five, relax at the lake that evening and be back in the city in time for work at noon on sunday.

no wonder i keep wanting a vacation haha.

i have a chronic issue with wanting to spread myself too thin and then complaining about it once it all kicks into gear, but the thing is sometimes being so busy is the closest thing i have to escaping from my problems. obviously it does create additional stress that may outweigh its other benefits, but when im really busy i dont have time to think about unrelated problems and i dont have as much time to worry. about unrelated things. i guess its my way of running away without running away.

probably not healthy.

i dont have time to worry about healthy today. maybe next week.