the beginning of the end?

You can flee with your wounds just in time or lie there as he feeds
Watching yourself ripped to shreds and laughing as you bleed

So for those of you falling in love keep it kind
Keep it good
Keep it right
Throw yourself in the midst of danger but keep one eye open at night


I'm about to watch the second presidential debate.

i wonder if i should even bother.

i suppose its a better option than studying for my geography midterm.
i speak in such a tone not because i feel that politics are futile, ive registered to vote, ive sent in my absentee ballot. when i receive it, i'll mark it with my choices via check mark or bubbled scantron or chads of whatever the hell they do now.

does it really matter though?

im not questioning democracy or the right of the individual to vote and the power of that individual vote, as i stated before, i will be voting in this election.

but do our actions really do anything to ward off the inevitable?

are we living in the end times?

like it or not i was born and raised and born again a Southern Baptist. while in my latter youth i have adopted a more moderate perspective on religion, i still uphold many of the things ive believed all my life. and believe me, us Baptists love all that fire and brimstone and shit.

i dont get into religion much here because i know there are people out there reading this. not that it should matter, but i know its a controversial topic, and i dont want anyone passing judgment.

but really though, are we living in the end times?

all signs point to yes, just google it.

but by the same token, look back at history. depending on your interpretations of the text all signs could point to yes at almost any given time.

but hearing about russia and the economic crisis and the gas crisis and north korea and the congo and nuclear warfare and terrorism...well its just not quite so settling for the soul.

at the end of the day no one knows when the end of the world will be, or how it will go down, or perhaps if it will even occur at all, though most scholars and scientists agree that at some point some serious shit is gonna fly. the thought is far too much to handle for me. i like to believe that i will see the day i graduate college (though it appears to be sliding further and further from my grasp), the day i get married, have children, retire. i like to think that the work i am doing to day is in order to better myself in the future. i like to think its not all in vain.

i guess thats what suicide bombers think too.

so perhaps im being ignorant for turning the other cheek when it comes to some of these issues. perhaps that makes me unamerican. but i sleep at night. for someone with as much anxiety as i have its a valid enough excuse. global issues are important, politics are important, this election is of utmost importance, but i cant live my life in fear...for who knows how much longer any of us have to do so.