im in this strange mental state somewhere between utter bliss and complete heartache. this weekend was nothing short of amazing, i had such a great time with all my friends just hanging out and hanging on to what's left. its scary and exciting all at one time.

you know what sucks about these blogs? theyre supposed to be an outlet for expression, but they can never be a complete outlet for expression, b/c what u write is on the internet, so youre always censoring what u say b/c u know anyone in the whole wide world could read it if they really wanted to. i cant say what i really feel and whats really going on and what i really think b/c this is the internet. im pouring my heart out to the world wide web, everyone look at me!

i'm scared and the pessimist in me says step back youre looking for trouble.

and this is when i know i should just cease thinking.