you know something that really sucks that you wouldn't neccesarily think about when recounting sucky things? an empty bed. im sorry but it is my experience that someone to hold you and cuddle with you is pretty much the cure for the common whatever ails your heart. but then if youre me you have to go back to sleeping with your dog, and then it just kinda sucks again, haha.

my parents have been gone since last wednesday, and they return this tomorrow. i actually have really enjoyed having the house to myself. nothing wild or crazy has been going on (unless you count the little whorehouse i had going on there for one night, that was a bad call on my part, but i guess im just the best friend ever). i just like having people, as in whoever, come and go when they please and it has been nice to not have to have anyone to answer to about that kind of thing. gives me a taste of what next year will be like, and i like it. oh wait, i have A visitation which means i'm not even allowed to think about having visitors, haha. oh well it has been fun.

so its the end of an era. friendships are changing, the way i view certain people is changing, i'm changing. life is moving so fast, and i often feel alone on this ride, but in the end i know i've always got people behind me, and new ones waiting in the wings ahead.