i rent a room and i fill the spaces with wooden places to make it feel like home,

but all i feel's alone.

campus is officially buzzing. the presidential courtyard outside my dorm room is alive with activity, but im just too tired to go out. rush was crazy today. thirteen sororities. all afternoon going from suite to suite making small talk. everyone here is so nice, but im just not sure im cut out for that kind of thing. i have so many personal and professional goals i want to accomplish right now and i guess i have to decide if the greek life can help me to do that and if i even have time for it. i found a calendar that has movies being played throughout the semester on campus. some of my favorites: the squid and the whale, boogie nights, match point. i'll be there.

i got real sad today. i walked past my mailbox and there was something in it! i rushed upstairs to get my card with my combination on it, ran back down, then realized i was looking at the box above mine. that kinda sucks. send me a letter kids it will be fun!

its 10:02 pm on saturday, august 19, 2006 on the first night of my life and i am sitting in my dorm room listening to true love waits and wondering if the universe would really be destroyed if it didnt.

i hope that here in God's country i can become the person i want to be and not lose myself anywhere along the way.

time for that summer reading i didnt do.