well three down.

i cant believe its time to say goodbye. its not the overall not being able to see some of my friends that saddens me, its the day to day knowing that they wont be there like they were. i wont run into them at target. i wont be able to see them physically grow and change except through pictures or through a computer screen.

these are things you can think about all u want but you dont truly understand until you experience them yourself.

i have a week and a half and i havent done a thing to prepare and meanwhile im trying to spend time with the friends who are still around. this is so hard and stressful. i kinda wish i could sleep through it all.

for now, that is what i will do.