No I'm not the girl I used to be lately,
See you met me at an interesting time.
And If my past is any sign of your future,
You should be warned before i let you inside.

I will beg my way into your garden,
Then I'll break my way out when it rains,
Just to get back to the place where I started
So I can want you back all over again
(I don't really understand)

ugh i just wrote a full post and deleted it. while the drama always provides plently of material, im pretty sure everyones pretty tired of emo angie. including angie. i suppose im just procrasting from the art history flashcards that surely await me. every 28 days i hate myself. and now i cant really sort my feelings out. i dont have much to think or say. i basically just go. my numb little life. buzzing around knoxville doin my thang the best i can.

oh, my egg broke all over the place. i was so happy to see it go though. i was kinda hoping that it my burst into flames or explode or start leaking nuclear waste product on its way down, but no such luck.

i went to starbucks with some girls from Bible study this afternoon. am i wrong for thinking its ok to be a "real" Christian? that its ok to know im not perfect and maybe even accept and be ok with it? to understand that i let the fbomb slip a little bit too much for the church's taste? is this outright rejection of my faith? i should hope not, i really want to be a good person. but im no angel and i dont want to be fake. thats why ive never led a Bible study or run around trying to convert people. im not exactly the perfect model of faith.

but i think we all do the best we can in everything and hope that its enough to get us by.

i write you letters.
but i dont send them.
i just cant figure out how to end them.