it's 1pm, i just woke up and i'm eating a chicken salad sandwich.

It's been almost a week since i've written once again. for once things have been happening in my life. sure, i still spend more than my share of time sitting in this desk chair on facebook, but i've also been out doing things, and that is an exciting thing. i've been experiencing some things, some emotions, that i never really believed could exist for me. i've been making dreams come true, for myself and others. but i suppose the greatest reason why i havent written is that for once i was a little scared to write about everything that was going on in my heart, my mind, my body, my life on this. i've never really been scared to put anything else up here before, but this almost feels like an invasion of privacy to me. but it is what it is and what it is is two people taking a chance at something both have recognized for years. passing this up would be foolish of me. it's about damn time.

ive run the gammut of emotion lately, but i suppose my two grandest emotions are happiness and fear. i have the butterflies. this is new. the butterflies haven't been around in a very very long time. the happiness part, this is how it should be. there's also an enormous sense of fear. fear that i will fuck probably one of the few things that actually means something to me in the grandest scheme of things up. i'm pretty good at doing that and i'm all too afraid i'll use my expertise in that area once again.

but it is too late for all of that now. i jumped off the bridge. i took my chance. and i hope that we both can be reeping the rewards of that chance for a long long time.

sidenote: sharing a bed > sleeping alone (to an infinite degree)