Friends who ask the tough questions are the best.

Meanwhile. Everything is collapsing. In the most beautiful way. The whole beauty in chaos thing if you will. Each day brings a new piece of mind and eventually I think I will get to a place where I am completely comfortable where I am in my life and who I am. I say things are okay a lot these days, but in truth im still not completely settled in the way things have played out. These things take time you know.

I looked around last night at the manhunt. A bunch of sketchy teenagers at the rec at 11 pm on a Friday night. Bodies laying in the grass painted with the melancholy orange light from the streetlights that always reminds me of how sad it is when parking lots are empty at night and you realize how empty the world and life itself really is without people to love and make your life interesting waiting for the next round of grown up hide and seek. And last night I really saw that we really are parting ways in a few months. We all know it. we dont talk about it. we just go forward. And we hope that one day well look back on this all and remember it fondly and probably paint in our own little daydreams of things that never happened and it will seem better than it really was. But it wont ever be the same. The responsibilities will be there and we will have to sit in offices and play grown up and have business ethics and possibly lose the little extras that make the core of us even better in the daily grind of it all.

Pack your things my dear its time to move on.

I just keep thinking: this is the best day of your life. The end of the beginning and the beginning of the end all at once. Anything is possible. Never say never.


[ANGIE’S PERROGATIVE (IN CASE YOU CARE)]
Friends who ask the tough questions are the best. Sam has a good grasp on the world as he sees it. so what about me? You asked for it:

The relationships you have with other people are essentially what keep you going. Human interaction is essential to happiness and fulfillment in life. If you close yourself off to others you close yourself off to a world of opportunity to learn how to be a better person, for each of us can learn infinite things from other individuals. Everyone has plenty to teach and plenty to learn. Every relationship I have I hope it to leave me changed in some way, because change arises from learning more about who you are and who you want to be.

Love is a type of relationship based on complete and utter acceptance and adoration for another. It is unconditional and true. However, love is based highly upon putting all your trust in another person and laying extremely personal emotions out on the table, and for the most part in the world, people cannot be trusted enough to handle these emotions with care, and in the end pain ensues. There are rare exceptions to this occurrence in which both parties have an unshakable connection with one another that transcends all conflict: this is true love, and some people never find it in there whole life. I would like to believe that ushy gooshy romantic love exists in the real world. But it almost seems as though you cant have romance if you want a relationship that is true and healthy. Perhaps this occurs in cases, I dont think I have enough experience (ie: any) to make that judgment call.

In the end, you answer only to God and yourself. It doesnt matter what others think of you, if you are unsatisfied with your actions your conscience will get the best of you.

The best way out of hard times and heartache is self improvement. Instead of crying and waddling in past misfortunes, you must constantly seek a higher level of self so that in the end, you win no matter what.

There are two keys to success: luck and working your ass off. The more honorable of the two being the latter. The only way to be the best in all you do is to try harder than everyone else and show everyone that you are willing to put in the effort the job takes. I myself am an underdog, but I know if I show that I give a flying flatoot about what I do, I may make it to where I want to be.

Everything in moderation. If we could all learn to stop being so damn extreme and not take everything so seriously, we might all get along a little better. You dont have to agree with everything everyone says, but you must allow them to have their own opinions without belittling them or persecuting them. You cant change how others feel, only the way you treat others. Ignorance is the worst.

Things happen for a reason, and even if you dont see a reason, you can always make a pretty good one up after the fact. Anything is possible and life is always surprising. Never never never say never, it bites you in the ass every time. The second you say you would never do something or have a relationship with some person or some type of person, circumstances will change and so will you. You can never be sure about the way things are, and closing yourself off from people or experiences does nothing but harm.

I know this much is true.