say goodnight and go.

Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love

im so bored.

im bored of my classes. bored with my schedule. bored with sitting in this cinder block cubicle i call home. bored of knowing my friends through pictures and computer screens and long distance calls. bored with cafeteria food. bored with art history flash cards. bored with still lifes.

im so ready.

ready to get out of here. ready to laugh for real. ready to sleep in my bed. ready to pick up my camera again. ready to feel whole again. ready for something different. ready for something new.

i feel so flat these days.

haha i know what youre thinking...yes folks my bra size is lacking so in reality my flatness is not just a figment of my imagination. but thats not the kind of flat im talking about. im talking about a flattness of inner self. as far as my ambitions for the future in schooling and career, i am at least somewhat optimistic and hopeful. but personally, i very numb. i just keep wondering how many letdowns it will take for me to finally just give up. this is most certainly a cycle i get myself into...but things will be much better soon.

thanksgiving
fun times with the loves of my life
stressful finals
the end of the semester
more fun times with the loves of my life
Jesus bday bing drinking? haha
Christmas
New Years
Semester number two
ill be back and i wont be able to imagine my life any other way
work hard
find inspiration
fall in love
summmmer....

maybe we'll get lucky and we'll both live again
i dont know i dont know i dont know i think so.