2 posts in 1 day! ack!
im bored, US history is not really catching my attention now. im so upset because the damn puppies are leaving. i know, im an idiot, but i am one of those people who got addicted to watching the shiba inu puppies on the website (http://www.ustream.tv/channel/shiba-inu-puppy-cam) and today half of them have gone away to their new homes. i dont know these dogs, i never will, but this shit is better than tv for serious.
i think if i were in beauty pageants my cause would be animal-related. probably spaying and neutering your pets...go bob barker on everyones ass. i lovvvve dogs. so yes, ive joined the ranks of the lonely housewives and the old ladies who spend their time watching these puppies all the way in california roll around in their superb awesomeness all day. and now theyre going away and ive got to say its making me a tad melancholy...though when am i not at least a little melancholy these days?
i guess i just feel more and more every day that i am just not a "college person" theres like something i seem to not be getting. the fault must be mine, theres no one else to blame it on. i keep thinking if i just change this or try that or move around or get away that those things will make it better. i think ive got a missing connection somewhere.
im not asking for a life of predictability or routine, thats not what i want at all. but i wish for just a bit i could be comfortable. not comfortable when i go home or when i get to spend the weekend with jordan, but comfortable in my daily life, its been a very long time since ive felt that way. just a contentment or an enjoyment or a sense of accomplishment every now and then. maybe i already have this i just need to think a certain way or not a certain way. i havent figured it out just yet.