having our cake and eating it too.

omg so so sick what am i going to do. i think im allergic to my damn house. every time i leave im fine but upon my return i become ill again. what do you do when you're allergic to your own house?

i chose the above image to reflect my ever-growing sentiments that i feel are confirmed every day in my comings and goings. i feel like im some sort of weird mixture of ideals because much of the art i do has feminist undertones, but much of feminism i dont understand/ dont agree with. should all people be treated equally? yes! if that makes me a feminist then i suppose i am, however here's the rub: everyone should be treated so equal if thats what they want. that probably sounds somewhat strange, but i feel that people are only open to receiving amount of respect that they give themselves. so, if women cant respect themselves, im not so sure anyone else will. consider the following article published in the school newspaper last week that really ticked me off:
http://media.www.redandblack.com/media/storage/paper871/news/2008/11/05/Opinions/Birth.Control.Should.Remain.Accessible-3524497.shtml

Am i ticked off about birth control or abortion? No! Save that argument for another day, Lord knows anyone and everyone can go around in circles with that one for hours. Im mad about her attitude toward the subject. she makes it seem like females do or maybe should rely on emergency birth control as a regular method for dealing with mistakes made after "a night downtown".

Excuse me? thanks for making us all look awesome girl, you battle for the respect and equal treatment you say you deserve then proceed to wipe it all away with words that say "it should be ok to slut around"

and maybe it should. but really is that the picture you want to paint of the rest of us? you only get the respect you give yourself. i see girls do it all the time. getting drunk to erase the blame for their actions, because you see if you do something while drunk it automatically becomes a cure-all excuse for making stupid decisions and actions. then magically you can laugh about it the next day and not have anyone look down on you because you know it wasnt you, it was the alcohol.

have i done/said/thought stupid things while intoxicated? fuck yes! but its almost like some girls go out with the intent of using alcohol to mask their sometimes socially-less-acceptable intentions. is there anything wrong with this? i think so, but in reality there isnt anything wrong with it, but when you start demanding respect and equal treatment, thats where the real problem comes in. the more you objectify yourself, the less respect you can expect to receive.

so thats my take on feminism. i dont think its so radical. you cant have your cake and go down on it too ladies.

i need to work out, but i cant really do that until i feel better. being homeless isnt really a good option, so looks like ill be sniffling for a while haha.