ok seriously, im going to write more. i really want to its just that im pretty sure youre more bored with my life than i am...not too much interesting going on, i should be thankful for that. but i know the sadness i feel when my blogger friends have not updated in forever (you all know who you are), and i being the stalker that i am feel frustration because they might want to be out living their lives instead of sitting in front of the computer all the time writing about it so that i can peep into their lives and souls. cmon people lets see some updates. i wanna know all the skanky and emo details.

so lets catch up since its been so terribly long...

two weekends ago i shot ryan's brother jonathan's wedding. i really enjoyed it, it was one of the most fulfilling weddings ive done though im not sure why. perhaps because the people involved were a little more familiar and a little less like strangers. perhaps because i got some killer shots of the two of them when the rain miraculously dissapated for the remainder of the afternoon as soon as the church doors opened at the end of the ceremony (see above: ignore the shitty color space, still getting used to this whole internet thing you know) perhaps because they really appeared to be in love, which i often find a rareity these days. whatever the case, it was fun, they have really great families and i think they are liking the pix so far at least.

spent most of the rest of the week in athens keeping kelley company and packing up what's left of my things. the house is going to look pretty bare without our stuff there, but looks like we're going to have to buy practically nothing for the new place which im quite excited about. we also ate cookies and sushi and ice cream but not all at the same time. im super excited for next year.

rounded out the weekend at the lake doing absolutely shit nothing. it sounds crazy, but i think i am seriously still recovering from school...yes it really was that bad. kelley and jordan came up and we tried to evade the rain between rounds of cards and lots of way too rich pie.

talked to ebeth tonight, im headed to the knox on saturday for mb's wedding. it still hasnt really set in that i have friends younger than myself getting married. e is different. she works at a kids camp now, im pretty sure she previously didnt like kids so hot. she talked a lot about her fiance, which is certainly natural, but i could just tell that we arent in the same place in life anymore. i fear that from this point forward we will have increasingly less and less in common. but i am excited for her, because this was all what she wanted and its how it was all meant to work out for her. im sure that shes going to be so happy and that makes me happy for her. i cant help but think though, given that so many of my ut friends are already engaged, that my move has prevented me from feeling the pressure to enter a stage of life for which i am so not even ready right now. going to weddings every weekend doesn't really help reinforce the desire for marriage haha.

so here i am, im not sure how many weeks into summer, and ive accomplished not too much so far. the relaxation, however, has been a good and neccesary addition to everything, but there are so many other, still relaxing things i wanted to do this summer that i will never accomplish at this rate of lethargy. sooo ive got to be a little more disciplined. i swear i used to be really disciplined. i also used to have patience, love to sit for hours and work on random useless craft projects and be able to focus. now things are different and i dont really like it. im going to blame it on technology. so i think now would be a good time to separate myself a bit from technology. allow myself to slow back down a little. so even though no one reads this im putting a call out for good books, like really good ones, like on the road kind of good. ive gotten more inspiration from music and books than anywhere else. the music is kind of dying now too, but ill fix that in time. so if you have any must reads please let me know : ) oh and for all you literary buffs i also equally appreciate good poetry which if i understand it (lol) i often find more visually rich and inspiring than books. my absolute fave hands down is pablo neruda. ill leave you with a line of his:

I want
To do with you what spring does with the cherry trees.

-Pablo Neruda Twenty Love Poems and A Song of Despair

sexy? oh yes i think so