just got back from orientation.

little did i realize UT is the UGA of Tennessee and therefore everyone local goes there and already has a strong base of friends. the result: angie is gonna have a tough time making some friends. i just get so tired of all the small talk and surface skimming conversation after awhile. eventually i just kinda gave up trying to be social: i dont plan on meeting my new best friend at orientation and since i am for the next year locked in the "virgin vault" im sure as hell not going to find any potential roomates.

i hate beginnings. they are frustrating and uncomfortable and you know all along that you aren't in the place you need to be. youre in the awkward phase of in between that gets you to the place you want to be.

this is a scary prospect.

but even scarier was the period of about 18 hours yesterday in which i thought there was no photography program at UT. i know this doesnt make sense, but they do not advertise these classes. apparently the program is very exclusive and prestigious and thats why its not advertised. people who want to get in have to be reviewed first. this worries me. but that is a worry for next year.

it seems like each new day brings about new feelings about my future, and present, career as a photographer. i am constantly doubting my abilities and then building my confidence back up just to have something else bring it down again.

but thats the way we get by.

angie's advice for the day:
this one goes out more specifically to the male readers, but i suppose it could apply to females too:
keep your anatomy and appendages out of all orfaces of others at all times. if you dont, youre just asking for trouble. have a blessed day! : )