well 6.6.06 is almost over and we're not all dead yet, so things are looking up. today was a day of liberation and little bit of awkwardness. here's a recap of today's events [in case you missed it]

1. took ebay pics and didnt really do a good job of doing so

2. got fired from a job i never had

3. chopped a significant portion of my hair off, then paid thirty dollars to be tortured in the worst way

4. tried to take pictures but instead incidentally hung one of my strobes from the garage door and almost electricuted myself in the process

5. went to super sketchy party?

6. went on a date with adam bailey?

7. got kicked out of sketchy party

8. went to the party in the brusters parking lot that apparently is a weekly occurence

9. said hello to number nine kasey kane

10. decided that today, the devil's day, is a changing day in my life. (or is it the devil's day really? i mean yousuf says no and what yousuf says goes so i guess not, well we'll just call it a sketchy day cause its 3 of the same number or somethig like that)

basically, i'm ready to love, i'm ready to be friends, i'm ready to take lots of pictures, i'm ready to begin saying goodbye, i'm ready to put my face out there to the world, i'm ready to rub a little of this green off of me (you know, its not easy being green), i'm ready to have my heart broken a little bit, i'm ready for a little less talk, i'm ready to move on, i'm ready to let go of inihibitions and past conflicts, and i'm ready to hold on to what is truly mine.

i'm a living breathing walking contradiction

Hey man
Evening on the ground
And there is no one else around
So you will
Blame me

Blame me for the rocks and baby bones
And broken lock on our garden

Garden wall of eden
Full of spiderbites and all your lovers
We were

We were born to fuck each other
One way or another

But i'll only lie
Down by the waterside at night