pay it forward.

so basically i love my friends. all of them. the past few days have been really awesome, just chilling out with people who already know my story and know my past. last night was the annual christmas shindig, better late than never. much better than last year when we knitted and went to bed at 9 o'clock. what redeemed this year's event you ask? oh many things my friend. could've been the crazy drunk birthday woman at bennihana who told me i believed in fairies and talked ashleys ear off and believed we were all offending japanese culture and cried about the dick hat and hit the waiter, could've been the late night facebooking and im-ing, could've been the frape drinks that might as well be 90-proof alcohol, could've been running around outside in the yard and dancing and falling over at midnight, could've been playing dress up in ashley's treasure trove of a room, my best guess is it was a combination of these things.

i can feel the end of the break lurking right around the corner. its a bittersweet kinda thing. i've had a lot of fun and there's several people i wish i could be around more on a daily basis, but i suppose it is time to move along.

with the new year its time to pay it forward. someone gave something to me last year. gave me love. gave me a chance. gave me confidence. gave me a reason to live my life with the volume turned up just a tad. so its my turn. pay it forward. i know how much what ive been given has meant to me, its time for me to bring the confidence bring the attention bring the love to someone else.