4/18/06 4:58pm
Aren't friends and loved ones awesome?
I mean they are always there for you and love you no matter what...you certainly can't say that about the cashier in line one at Target. I am very grateful for the people that love me in my life. They have to put up with a lot of crap from me, and somehow amazingly they continue to stick around. I guess I could consider myself the Official Tester of Unconditional Love. I really wish I didn't have to say this, but maybe I enjoy pushing people's buttons. I really hope that's not it. It could be that I'm just so damn moody sometimes. I try to keep myself decent and at bay but as those who know me can see, it doesn't always work. In a few months, I'm going to have to find a whole new mess of people who will put up with my crap. What if I can't find anyone? What if no one else is able to search deep down and find the good in me like these people have done for me? It's something I guess I will have to conquer later. For now, I would like to say to my friends:

Thank you for all that you are to me and all that you do for me. You are my stability and confidants on everything. Each of you pisses me off to no end on a regular basis, but so long as i return the favor (as i know i do) we should be alright. And for now, I just want to sit back and enjoy the time I have with you, its going to be amazing.

Now to the critics I must say:
I am not crazy i promise! Yes, i do take some pictures with questionable subject and content, but does that honestly make me such a bad person? Cmon, cut me some slack. Off-kilterness is wonderful...no one is completely normal after all. Also, I am not a stalker! I feel like i often go out of my way to NOT do things that might be considered stalkerish because people already think I'm crazy (see beginning of this paragraph). Don't worry loves, I'm 18 years old, and while I'll admit i often need people to take care of me, i know how i feel, i know how to handle myself, and im secure with where im at right now.

If you'll excuse me, i'm now going to enter my 5th hour of the day on the computer desperately searching for pix for my portfolio.