5/10/06 8:42 pm

im a high school lover
and youre my favorite flavor.

ap econ's freakin me out.
yet i still can't convince myself to study the amount of studying i need to do.

after tomorrow my academic school year will be over b/c basically its geology and that weird stat project all the way. guess who's majorly excited about this prospect. things are gonna move so fast, but i have a feeling its going to be a very sweet thing.

tomorrow night is my dinner with the lalas. us as a foursome is almost over too. i keep forgetting that everyone else is going to end up at the same place: UGA. this time im the odd one out.

it appears as though the day i thought would never come is vastly approaching and there's not a thing in the world i can do about it.

i just looked out the window and it was storming earlier but now the weather is nice and those kinds of days are the best kinds of days for sunsets. the sky was an amazing menagerie of purple and orange. i would have taken a picture, but a suburban development subdivision that is my habitat doesn't make for the best backdrop for landscape shots. tonight's the kind of night to sit outside in a lawn chair in the middle of the street with the one u love and just be there for awhile. i wish i had the ability to do that.

thought for the day in case you didnt get deep enough into my psyche?:
i need to work on being ok with how things are. maybe they're not the way i envisioned and they're not fairy tales, but that my friends is life. we deal we deal.

what hurts the most
is being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could've been
and not seeing that loving you
is what i was trying to do.