well i have reached the end.

someday in the future i will look back and recognize the magnitude of today. i will go back over the memories i forgot to review. i will think about all my regrets. all the people i forgot to say goodbye to and will probably never see again. the innocence lost. the regrets. the laughs in the cafeteria. the freedom and comfort of knowing your parents will always bail you out.

in the future i will think about these things and think about how i forgot to think and reflect upon them tonight.

but it is not the future yet.

so thus tonight i will go put on a rediculous looking outfit and go out into the sweltering heat for a few hours to recieve a scroll of paper. i will not think about all the important things. those will hit me later. the ride is over, and i dont even know it.

"first night of your life
curled up on your own"