i made it through the weekend...i cant believe it. now only 4.5 days until i get to go to athens. im soo excited. im ready to see people, and theyll see how im failing at this whole life on my own thing, but it will be worth it just to be with my family again.

i went on a sorority retreat this weekend. i think im going to stick with it. at least see how i feel about it after a year. we played never have i ever (im such a prude i almost won), and it made me realize that maybe there are girls in this group i can identify with. and oddly enough there seem to be a few who already care about me. i even joked around and laughed a little bit. this is new. during the retreat we sat in a circle and went around explaining what object we brought along that was important to us. most brought childhood stuffed animals, pieces of jewelry, or sentimental gifts from graduation. i was never too big on the stuffed animal thing, and i didnt have anything i cared about too terribly much in a sentimental way, so as i was packing i chose a few photographs from the montage above my bed to bring along. as i was putting them in my bag, i realized they were all from this past year...the best year of my life. the last year of my life. i also realized that each image was from a distictive event and of a person/people who will have a lasting impact on my life:

the picture of the ten bs in the burbs that was in the yearbook
kelley and amanda pointing out into oblivion in the ocean on spring break
yousuf making a goofy face during our solo photoshoot
jenny at nirvana the morning after graduation
me holding up amanda's casted arm before prom
me, jax, ryan and yousuf on the couch at their photoshoot at the studio
jordan in the field on a sunny afternoon in july, camera to his face
robyn and i on one of our last nights together dressed like complete sluts
a pile of the people i love the most and could never forget on my couch at my graduation party

these are the people. the times. the memories. that i will cherish forever. they have made me who i am today, and that is why i brought them with me.

SARAH BLUVAS: i cant wait for cheesecake...youre awesome

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