im back in a sour mood tonight. ughh sorry readers.

this break is much not what i expected it to be and what i find even more surprising is that im kinda ready to go back to ut. has my escape become the place im now supposed to call home? i thought i was escaping from knoxville and now it appears that knoxville is my escape from roswell. i dont really feel like i belong in either place anymore and that leaves me with a very empty feeling. maybe i was expecting too much out of this break, but not much has been going on. personally for me it was a good time of realization and growth. however there were several occasions, like right now, that i felt just as lonely here as i do in knoxville. i guess i wasnt expecting that. the time has certainly been relaxing and its been a good time to be with family at home but i feel like i accomplished nothing and i guess im just ready for the next two weeks to go by so i can get a real break. two more weeks. i can do this.

i love you roswell and i love you friends. i promise ill be better to both of you the next time im in town.