gifts and such.

only a few more days for me here at ut. im so excited. as much as ive bitched and complained and freaked out about this whole adjustment process, i still consider myself a pretty independent person. i survived many a sleepover, summer camp, etc without homesick issues. but today as i walked through the campus bookstore filled with orange everything from golf club covers, to t-shirts, to beer coozies, to scrubs, to door knockers, picking out some Christmas gifts for my family i realized i was pretty excited to see my family. this is new, i dont usually get excited to see my family, no offense to them of course.

i spent this morning in the old city listlessly searching for gifts for people i dont really know well enough to be buying gifts. i love giving gifts by trade, but in truth, when it comes to gifts, i would rather only give gifts to those closest to me because those are the only people who i know well enough to give lasting gifts anyway. and for those closest, i would rather get them something truly special and memorable. sometimes this means spending a lot of money. sometimes it means sacrificing something else, like time. any 12 dollar picture i could pick out at target is not going to replace the awesome weekend and the great memories kelley and i will have when she comes up here for the john mayer concert. her ticket is her christmas present from me. i would rather give something that someone will never forget and something that someone will really appreciate than some cheap disposible manufactured bullshit.

Christmas time is known for being overly sentimental and fuzzy and such, but i think it may have even more of that feeling this year. reunited with my many loved ones from back at home is sure to spawn lots of good chill time and some good long talks that we've all needed to have. so excuse me but im gonna go get fuzzy and im going to take it for all its worth. we dont know how much time we have with each other. we may drift apart between now and the next time we see each other. we may move away farther. we may die. we may change.

cherish whatever it is as it comes.

if its a mistake, make it anyway.

things you never do dont have the opportunity to be a mistake.

they dont have an opportunity to be a success either.