i'll be near you.

this picture is just for you, special manfriend who will remain nameless. you know who you are.

so maybe i am.

i didnt do a damn thing today. i really didnt. but what i did do was actually see my parents for more than five seconds. i took these pictures. i reflected, which is usually a bad thing. and although my reflections were bittersweet, as i realized how truly much i love all the people here and the life i once had here, i'm coming to terms with how that part of my life is over and i must move along in my new place, and hope and plan a new life, in hopes that i should be lucky enough that it could include some of these great individuals. and it can. it doesn't have to end here.

its Christmas i think i forgot that. despite all the music and the decorations and the copious amounts of christmasy foods liek the pepperidge farm baskets, the cheap wine, the spiced pecans, toffee, chex mix and all the rest it just doesnt feel the same and therefore i feel like it isnt Christmas. but if i can make it through my trip to bama without to many battle scars then i should be ok and i get to move on to the fun part: giving all these gifts ive been running around getting.

i'm so excited for tomorrow, i think its going to be an all around great day.

it feels nice to be happy.