check...mate

i think if nothing else friends serve to keep you from: a. believing you are crazy b. going through with crazy/destructive plans of action.

i might be crazy.
like maybe i should see a doctor or something.
i might be crazy or i might be female.
its hard to tell the difference.
or maybe im like a crazy female squared or something like that.

i dont know who this person is, he sounds quite uneducated, but he is a noted fashion photographer and im a believer:


"these are everything i did for the last 8years, and i realized its a long(*)road( not so hard and painful if you are passionate about photography and have some nice pictures sometime) .

make sure you have enough to pay your rent and food, or get your frineds and families to pay for it …. just for a while and dont piss them off, they are a life saver…

and keep on shooting and no retirement plans. ”

said not so eloquently, but i appreciate it nonetheless. i think theres something to be said about being ambitious and seeking what you are after. i think its a great idea to learn all you can and get connected all you can, but maybe im overlooking the biggest point, maybe in our haste to get the best college education we can we've all overlooked the biggest point: sometimes it takes a dose of life to learn anything.

i could have attended a pretentious art school. i could run off to new york and work with haughty snotty bitchy fashion people. i could. maybe one day i will. but i dont think it has to be so black and white. maybe if i got my ass out of this apartment and into a life that doesnt involve books and deadlines and resumes and interviews and anxiety, maybe i might actually learn something from my college experience.

perhaps if you expend all of your energy climbing up the ladder, if and if you make it, its quite possible you will have no idea what the hell youre doing when you get to the top.

in my small file of greatest compliments ever received there is one from an alcoholic russian man given to me in a buckhead life restaurant this summer, "i picked you because you have drive, i can see it in your eyes."

no company or internship or trip or other person can give that to me. no company or internship or trip or other person can take that away from me. its one of the few things that truly belongs to me and only me and i get to do with it what i want to.

here we are at the brink of another weekend. another weekend in which i will surely face boughts of depression due to boredom and aforementioned mild insanity which i am currently learning to cope with. i hope that this weekend, no matter where in the world you are, my friends, that you will take a deep breath and breathe it all in.

this is life.
the view is not always pretty.
but theres always something to see.