in the waiting line

well, i really cant complain, things seem to be working out great. if i could find someone to live in this apartment next semester that would be even better. my mom told me once that whenever she has car trouble she wants to get rid of that car asap. once it betrays her she wants to have nothing more to do with it. i guess thats how i feel about ut. now that leaving is a reality im ready to go right now, today. honestly if thats what i could do, i would, and i wouldnt look back.

jordan is right, the coming weeks will go by quickly. i have a wedding and pbp shit next weekend, then homecoming week, then jordan coming to visit, then going to uga, then thanksgiving, then formal, then finals, then moving out! it leaves only one or two more weekends spent here alone wallowing in my self loathing and other shit.

its just like now that i realize i dont have to be here forever and that, God willing, im not going to be here much longer, everything about this place pisses me off. ebeth is getting on my nerves with her constant pursuits for perfection in everything and her criticism of what i eat and do and say and how much i work out (or dont). the town is ugly, theres not much productive to do here unless you count drinking as productive.

knoxville may be the car that broke down. it let me down and now i want out of it.